the four right chords can make me cry

sorry, the blog seems to be the last to know.

already told enai, aunty chiew ping, mei ee (the people concerned about the going ons in my life). i passed my basic theory! and i got accepted into USP! REALLY HAPPY! i thought the USP interview went really badly, but hey, i made it anyway. im grateful to God.

was feeling a little scared at first, wondering if i could cope with uni life, whether i would fit in, i heard the programme is really stressful, esp for life science, then there's the perenial money issue. but after a few days of agonising doubt and despair, i've come to the conclusion that if God's brought me to this point, He will also give me the strength to see it through.

it sounds so easy on print. but it's a struggle for me. those same thoughts come back to haunt me now and then and i have to fight them off. I've decided i just gotta grit my teeth, mug hard and get through this, nerd or no nerd, money or no money.

you go girl.

me and stephanie were just saying how great it is to be a girl. all through catering we carried a total of zero heavy things, the guys had to do all the shifting, carrying, hauling, packing. we stood around and looked pretty for most of the time. ah john frequently asked me to take rests and if i was ok. we got to go off earlier than everyone else. we got to sit in the front while all the guys crammed into the miserable space at the back. (and it was miserable, not enough space to sit properly even). Privilege with a capital P.

at first i was a little uneasy, with my egalitarian and feminist ideals. i kept saying i felt unhelpful and tried to pitch in. but stephanie eased me into it, made me feel comfortable about not doing the heavy stuff and just letting the guys have a go at it (although they did badly at carrying the tables down, banging them all the way on the stairs till even the good natured bosses yelled at them). alright, being female rocks.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:21 AM